Balancing act

When you laughed me off today
The mere pebbles that you hurled
Came hurtling my way
Disguised as heavy boulders.

And then it dawned-
How much
Of an emotional crutch
You were to me.

I’ve been doing
A balancing act
With my clumsy naive self
And inevitably
I’ll stumble.

It is a bit too late for me
To wake up from my stupor and see
That never were you
My mythical pillar of strength.

I know-
I have to let go
For it isn’t too long
That you can possibly lean on to
A staff that’s split into two.

But forgive me-
I’m really so used
To being
A helpless cripple
That I can’t
But use you
As my lame excuse.